Stock taking
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning o crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
~ Revelation 21 : 4 ~
We live in a contradictory world.
Though one with balances.
Improvements have been made on almost all fronts.
Very glad for that.
BUT
I need to find the balance on other aspects in my life.
Frustration is the main order of the day when things do not go as planned right?
That depends on how you would look at things.
Self censorship?
Yes.
Self denial?
Of course.
Abnegation?
You bet.
Losing yourself/forgetting who you are?
HACK NO!
I can not begin to describe how much I need God in my life.
Everything seems so bleak when I am without His guidance.
He gives and takes away.
All with a cause.
Not that I would be able to understand the reasoning for.
Comfort comes from the fact that I have a Heavenly Father who knows what is going on and whom I know will take care of me.
He has a habit of taking me out of my comfort zone and showing me how much of a difference His love makes in my life.
I've spent the last 3 months awakening my mindset and trying to make sure that I do not make a (possibly bigger) mess of things.
The person I was 1 year ago is someone who didn't notice or realise a lot of things.
Safe to say, I was moving around in a dream/ nightmare.
Now - my eyes are a bit clearer.
My mind moves more.
My body less - there in lies a huge irritation for me - got to get back into the swing of exercising.
I miss running around like a headless chicken sometimes.
The burning out portion was not fun.
Its the part about living life to the most of my means.
I need to be reminded that quality is not in the quantity.
I've kinda alienated myself from quite a few of the activities which I used to spend time on in the past.
Though not with due cause.
Rationalisation is a tough deal.
Sticking to your commitments requires you to really believe in them.
Winnie once mentioned in cell group that your convictions are the things that hold you, and not the other way around.
I'm sticking to my convictions.
Not selling my birth-right ever.
Gramps has been in the hospital for almost a month already.
Its a very big toll on the family to be worrying about her and then the hospital bills and then the implications of choices that have to be made in the due course of time.
No one ever said that growing up was going to be fun.
Responsible slacker?
I'm keeping the responsible portion.
Doing away with the later half would be a very good idea.
Procrastination shall not be a friend of mine.
My previous phone went the way of the Dodo recently.
As a result, all my phone numbers that were stored in the phone also went missing.
Efforts now go to recovering the telephone numbers.
Proper usage of the tools I have at hand.
Yielding results?
Yessiree.
Thank God.
Now look at the clock.
Its a Friday and its morning.
What is this fella doing online at this hour, hitting away at the keyboard?
I decided to take replacement leave - one of the things which has to be done when the company does not allow claiming of overtime in dollars and cents.
Committing the day to doing whatever TKM wants to do.
Which includes visiting Gramps at the hospital and going grocery shopping.
I like the fact that I am now clearer on what my goals are.
I'd like to think that I've matured in the way I think and my ability to grapple with various concepts.
And what I wish to be doing 5 years from now, I've got a pretty good drawing done up.
Personally, I really hope that I will not have to make changes to the plans.
Yes, modifications can be made from time to time.
However, time is a factor that is not to be trifled with.
Singaporeans are somewhat sad creatures.
We toil the whole day to make sure that the clock does not get the better of us.
When young, we waste heath to get wealth.
Coming to old, we waste wealth to get health.
We have a rapidly changing environment that yields plenty of rewards.
Only for those who are able to move with the times.
Having gone though so many things recently, I do wonder if it is possible to survive as a 'good' person.
People who get the results, the end results for the balance sheet, are the ones who play others like chess pieces.
See people, speak like people.
See ghosts, speak like ghosts.
Is this something which I will have to do in order to get things done?
God help us all.
Hope has never been a strong point of adults.
They see things in the grim reality and resign themselves to the facts which will then determine the way they accomplish their tasks.
Are adults able to find happiness?
Or are they always satisficing with the next best thing?
I hate double thinking.
Balance.
Find it.
In God we trust.
In God we hope.
Blessings~
^-^
~ Revelation 21 : 4 ~
We live in a contradictory world.
Though one with balances.
Improvements have been made on almost all fronts.
Very glad for that.
BUT
I need to find the balance on other aspects in my life.
Frustration is the main order of the day when things do not go as planned right?
That depends on how you would look at things.
Self censorship?
Yes.
Self denial?
Of course.
Abnegation?
You bet.
Losing yourself/forgetting who you are?
HACK NO!
I can not begin to describe how much I need God in my life.
Everything seems so bleak when I am without His guidance.
He gives and takes away.
All with a cause.
Not that I would be able to understand the reasoning for.
Comfort comes from the fact that I have a Heavenly Father who knows what is going on and whom I know will take care of me.
He has a habit of taking me out of my comfort zone and showing me how much of a difference His love makes in my life.
I've spent the last 3 months awakening my mindset and trying to make sure that I do not make a (possibly bigger) mess of things.
The person I was 1 year ago is someone who didn't notice or realise a lot of things.
Safe to say, I was moving around in a dream/ nightmare.
Now - my eyes are a bit clearer.
My mind moves more.
My body less - there in lies a huge irritation for me - got to get back into the swing of exercising.
I miss running around like a headless chicken sometimes.
The burning out portion was not fun.
Its the part about living life to the most of my means.
I need to be reminded that quality is not in the quantity.
I've kinda alienated myself from quite a few of the activities which I used to spend time on in the past.
Though not with due cause.
Rationalisation is a tough deal.
Sticking to your commitments requires you to really believe in them.
Winnie once mentioned in cell group that your convictions are the things that hold you, and not the other way around.
I'm sticking to my convictions.
Not selling my birth-right ever.
Gramps has been in the hospital for almost a month already.
Its a very big toll on the family to be worrying about her and then the hospital bills and then the implications of choices that have to be made in the due course of time.
No one ever said that growing up was going to be fun.
Responsible slacker?
I'm keeping the responsible portion.
Doing away with the later half would be a very good idea.
Procrastination shall not be a friend of mine.
My previous phone went the way of the Dodo recently.
As a result, all my phone numbers that were stored in the phone also went missing.
Efforts now go to recovering the telephone numbers.
Proper usage of the tools I have at hand.
Yielding results?
Yessiree.
Thank God.
Now look at the clock.
Its a Friday and its morning.
What is this fella doing online at this hour, hitting away at the keyboard?
I decided to take replacement leave - one of the things which has to be done when the company does not allow claiming of overtime in dollars and cents.
Committing the day to doing whatever TKM wants to do.
Which includes visiting Gramps at the hospital and going grocery shopping.
I like the fact that I am now clearer on what my goals are.
I'd like to think that I've matured in the way I think and my ability to grapple with various concepts.
And what I wish to be doing 5 years from now, I've got a pretty good drawing done up.
Personally, I really hope that I will not have to make changes to the plans.
Yes, modifications can be made from time to time.
However, time is a factor that is not to be trifled with.
Singaporeans are somewhat sad creatures.
We toil the whole day to make sure that the clock does not get the better of us.
When young, we waste heath to get wealth.
Coming to old, we waste wealth to get health.
We have a rapidly changing environment that yields plenty of rewards.
Only for those who are able to move with the times.
Having gone though so many things recently, I do wonder if it is possible to survive as a 'good' person.
People who get the results, the end results for the balance sheet, are the ones who play others like chess pieces.
See people, speak like people.
See ghosts, speak like ghosts.
Is this something which I will have to do in order to get things done?
God help us all.
Hope has never been a strong point of adults.
They see things in the grim reality and resign themselves to the facts which will then determine the way they accomplish their tasks.
Are adults able to find happiness?
Or are they always satisficing with the next best thing?
I hate double thinking.
Balance.
Find it.
In God we trust.
In God we hope.
Blessings~
^-^